No Peace in Yearning

Untimely birth,
Mother let go.
Everyone’s humanity had been compromised long before I was born.
Alone.
Someone disconnected me from all of humanity.
Mind scattered across the sky,
like fireworks fading into the void.
Body fell to the bottom of the ocean,
letting go of gravity as it no longer held.
A fall from grace,

Lost in space.
Alien on earth,
Alone on earth.
Remember: only destination is the climb back to humanity.
Being with people.
I cannot relax until I’m alone.
People tell me they cannot relax when they are alone.
I feel at ease when I know what is on someone’s mind.
I feel unease when I don’t know what someone is thinking/feeling.
People feel ease in proximity to others, People are not looking to know what other’s are thinking/feeling.
I love people the most,
I love me the most.
All humans are like me in this way.
I spent a lifetime trying to prove to humans I’m worthy of them, I belong with them.
I now spend so much time alone because I cannot find ones worthy of me.
Alone.
I yearn for connection, yet—
I retreat, seeking peace in solitude,
But there is no peace in yearning.
What next, then? More questions to ask, More truth to unearth.